About a week ago a friend of mine came to the Isle of Wight to see me and within an hour or so of leaving he was hit by a bug or something that put him on his back for days.

By the time I heard about this I was in the same position, presumably from the same source, and I have spent the last seven days battling with a debilitating illness that feels like someone has taken a Hoover to my energy field and sucked out my life force. I have never felt so bad for so long in many years and a week later it has been a physical effort even to complete this newsletter.

The worst thing about it was that the day after it truly kicked in I was due to be interviewed for a 'no budget' documentary by two young guys from Germany who had driven all the way to England and slept overnight in their car just so they could get me on film.

By the time they arrived and knocked the door I was on my back and in no state to stand up for long, let alone answer questions for two hours. We offered to put them up for the night in a hotel and see what I was like the next day (worse, as it turned out).

But the offer was refused because the documentary team said they wanted to present me at my best and not at half-speed because of the illness. As a result, they drove and 'ferried' all the way back to Germany the same day with their travel budget to speak with me now gone.

When I am well again, I will make sure they can come back and complete the job because that level of commitment and respect for someone's work is rare indeed and it made me think of all the people who claim to be committed to a cause when they are really only committed to their own self-interest.

These are the 'Little Game' players who get so caught up in their own 'stuff' that they lose sight of the 'Big Game' - service to the greater good.

While the German guys were showing such Big Game commitment with their enormous respect and support for me and what I am seeking to do, there was another guy in the English Midlands who was sending out hysterical attacks on my character and motives with no evidence whatsoever.

I was an 'agent of Rome and MI6', he insisted, and he included one of the best lines I have seen for while. He said he would go on saying that I was an MI6 operative until 'you prove you're not'. I love it. Okay, I say the person reading this newsletter is a CIA agent - now prove to me you're not.

The personal attacks even claimed that I couldn't be trusted because I 'drink one beer after the other'. Firstly that was never true and second I don't drink beer at all now. Apart from that, he was spot on. This was from a man who says that I opened his mind to what was going on in the world, but he now knows more than I do and I must be exposed for misleading people by not saying exactly what he does.

But all that's bye the bye. The point that struck me this week in the contrast between the German lads and the moronic rants of a 'conspiracy researcher' against a fellow researcher was how few people can hold their focus on the greater good and not fall to the ego-generated temptations of what you might call 'Little Game Myopia'.

You can see this in every area of life, from politics to personal relationships, and certainly it is there in abundance in what is called conspiracy research and the 'New Age'.

Conspiracy research should be there for one reason - serving the greater good. Once you lose that focus it degenerates into competing factions all scrambling for pre-eminence on the greasy pole. Isn't that how the system they are supposed to be exposing also works?

There is so much hostility and bile passing around the conspiracy research arena when we should be supporting each other despite differences in emphasis and belief. The unity of purpose does not need every detail agreed - just a commitment to freedom for all.

So often that doesn't happen because the Big Game become secondary to the Little Game - summed up in this case by 'I know more than yooou, nah, nah!' The Little Game mentality turns the attention from looking outward to looking inward and this forms an energetic 'bubble' within which the pursuit of perceived 'power' or 'prestige' among peers is more important than communicating information for the benefit of all.

For too many, the conspiracy research arena is a game in itself and winning that game becomes the goal when it should be merely the vehicle for serving the greater good. This leads to researchers attacking each other or talking among themselves at the expense of informing the wider population of what is going on.

'I'll tell you what's happening as soon as I have destroyed this guy's reputation so no-one will listen to him.' Oh great contribution, mate, nice one. The world is a better place.

The more successful you are in communicating this essential information the more you become the target of the 'Little Gamers' because you are where they would like to be and feel they have the right to be. Instead of being pleased to see the walls of suppression being broken down, the Little Gamers charge that anyone who gets any level of mainstream media coverage must, by definition, be 'one of them'.

This is how the bubble mentality works. It wants to be king of the bubble and no-one else is allowed to freely escape. The Little Game becomes the point instead of the vehicle and thus those who claim to be opposing something become mirrors of what they 'oppose'.

You see this in politics most blatantly. I was watching Prime Ministers' Questions in the British Parliament this week when the Prime Minister Gordon Brown was questioned by Conservative leader David Cameron, and others. Parliaments, Congress and their like are the epitome, the very temples, of the Little Game mentality.

It has nothing whatsoever to do with the greater good of the people outside in the country struggling to pay bills or put food on the table. It is only about point scoring and trying to get their best scripted one-liners onto the main TV news bulletins to influence public opinion to vote for them and improve their status in their Little Game.

A statesman speaks: 'My dad's bigger than your dad'.

A statesman replies: 'My mum's better than your num'.

Billions remain in desperate straits around the world, thousands continue to die in Iraq, but 'Hey, they played my joke against the Prime Minister on the Ten O'Clock News'. Oh well done, mate. Good day, then.

Last week the opposition Conservatives proposed some new policies that proved to be popular with the public. This week Gordon Brown's Labour government proposed those same policies as their own creation in an effort to stop the Conservatives gaining the benefit of their efforts in opinion polls. The Conservatives, in turn, are just as cynical whenever it suits them.

It's not about people or their needs and desires, or what policies are best for the country or wider world. It's a game, a Little Game, played out by a few hundred politicians for their personal benefit and amusement at the expense of multi-billions - the greater good.

When you go into the Houses of Parliament you are struck instantly by its insular nature; how it is a world-within-a-world looking in on itself, detached from those it is supposed to be serving. Even its very structure is designed to accentuate this effect.

That's what the Little Game does. It detaches you from those you are supposed to be serving and realigns your focus to the demands of the ego. The ego always looks inward because 'Me' is its territory.

If you look at any government department, local, national or international, you will find that they are serving their own interests and not those of the people who fund them. They are all Little Games that hypnotise the mind-slaves-in-suits into seeing progress within the game as the meaning of their lives.

The rules of the Little Games, and the desire to win them, disconnect so many from an empathy with Big Game values like justice, honesty and fairness for all. Instead, what serves the Little Game always takes precedence and so injustice, dishonesty and unfairness prevail. This is why Little Gamers within governments and transnational corporations make or administer decisions every day that lead to slaughter and suffering throughout Africa and elsewhere.

Don't let anyone tell me that they don't like doing such things, but it's their job or some 'superior' orders them to do it. This world will only change when people change and start to do what is right and not what they think is right for them in the moment - classic Little Game 'thinking'.

'Oh, but I couldn't say no, I was next for promotion.'

Bollocks to your promotion. Doing what is right is promotion - to a higher consciousness.

Personal relationships are often magnets for the Little Game mentality and become contests to 'win' or 'lose' instead of unions of mutual support in pursuit of Big Game objectives.

'You said this and I said that, and when I did this, you did that, and you can't do this or that or the other. I remember the time when I was doing this or that and you said this or that, it was so terrible and it's all your fault ... blah-de-blah-de-blah-de-blah.'

Meanwhile, the clock keeps on ticking. I have known people who put the greater good before their self-interest and I have known those who do the opposite. The difference is that the former is a rarity and the latter a commonplace.

I shake my head in disbelief when I see those who know at least some of the background to the conspiracy and its consequences for humanity who still pursue their own agenda, play their silly games and act out their self-indulgent dramas at the expense of doing what is most effective in alerting people to their plight and ways of dealing with it.

But they are caught in the Little Game and that is always ego-driven, always me, me, me. It always seeks out the mirror, never the window.

It is time for all of us to have a commitment-check because we will eventually have deep regrets if we look back and see what more we could have contributed or how we got trapped in the irrelevances of the Little Games at the expense of the Big One - human freedom.

The Little Games are going on in every street and crevice of what we call society. In homes, offices, factories, councils, clubs - anywhere that people gather or interact. They give their all to be chairman of the golf club, leader of the council or have the latest car or carpet that their neighbours can't afford.

And for what? For the greater good of the golf club, council or the Smiths at number 23? Of course not. For the greater good of their own ego. It's just so they can say they are chairman, or leader, or ahead of the Jones'. So they can say they have 'made it' within their own Little Game.

And then what happens? They eventually turn their toes up and their coffin is off for its date with the vicar. What do they think then, as layers of illusion are removed, of their life-long commitment to self-interest and Little Game playing?

I wonder if they think that spending all those years scheming and plotting, hand-shaking and arse-licking, were worth the seat of honour at the golf club dinner? I wonder if they are proud of the way they manipulated themselves into power or position merely in pursuit of service to self?

I think not, unless what passes for their consciousness continues to be earth-bound in its perception of reality.

It is what we have done for others, the greater good I talk about, that will make our hearts sing when we get 'out' of here. Not what we have pursued out of misguided, delusory self-interest.

At higher levels of awareness, self interest IS the greater good, for it knows we are all one. What a different 'world' we would be experiencing if we lived that understanding now.

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