ave devised a platform of understanding to support my evolving concepts of love and allowance regarding the seemingly complex area of today's idea of love,partnership and sexuality....yet I am always challenged in the transition to "pure unconditional love" evolving out of our flawed dualistic reality.

Inherant in the consideration of partnerships today are the options of malefemale, malemale and femalefemale!

Recent confrontations encompass religious,governental and legal support of all such unions.

I would appreciate your reflections on my present posturing.

BACKGROUNG AND INFLUENCING CIRCUMSTANCES:

My father was the oldest of sixteen children and we lived next door to my Grandmother ,his family.

I was afforded a remarkably broad spectrum of all aspects of sexuality and partnerships of all kinds in observing life among these 15, of the 16, that grew to physical maturity.

MY SECRET LOVE;

My Grandmother(my father's mother) was the only one (without undue laboring or elaboration) in my mind,that kept me alive for my first eight years of life on this plane of existence.

My Grandmother was passionately and blindly devoted to her marriage , her children and grandchildren....and her Catholic view of God....you could say I was the surviving 16th of her children....I would not be alive today if it was not for her love. She died ,exhausted , overburdened,and grossly underappreciated...and sexually abused(be it knowlingly or otherwise)at the young age or 54.

I STILL MISS MY GRANDMOTHER'S NUTURING AFTER 53 YEARS... SHE ALWAYS MADE ME FEEL THAT I WAS EQUAL AND AS VALUABLE AS ANYONE ELSE....MAYBE EVEN A LITTLE SPECIAL....MUCH OF WHAT I STAND FOR CAME FROM AN APPRECIATION OF THE ABJECT ABUSE OF HER BODY AND SOUL BORN OF THE OBSCENITIES PERPITRATED UPON HER BEING DUE TO BLIND OBEDIENCE TO CORRUPT CATHOLIC DOGMA..

MY MOTHER AND FATHER;

My mother was remarkably innocent and ignorant(in terms of educational accomplishment and garnered illusionary and practiced sophistification).,,,,,in other words ..when she conceived me she did not know that she could have more than one child,.....let along have five children...as she was totally unaware of the details and complexities of propagation and life....yet she provided the most profound anchoring to "nature" or "the natural" or " spirit" or "that which is of Mother Earth".....somewhat Lemurian in nature...yet she always was extremely desirous of a very different existence .She would tell me this often.

My father was totally Atlantian....arrogant in his ignorance ,with the potential of a different kind of genius than my mother's....Yet ,unduly suppressed after repeated harsh lessons during childhood reinforced by beatings with a horse whip...which is a typical Catholic modality ..be it physical ,emotional, mental,or spiritual.

Yes.....we were Catholic , French Canadian and Farmers!

A PROFOUND DIVERSION;

I attended a Redemptorist seminary or should I say semen(ary)....

The Redemptorists are the right arm to the Jesuits under the Black Pope ...and you could say the Dominicans and Franciscans come as the left arm...

During this time I became privey to an alarming book which fully documented business plans,including extensive statistical data with the past,present results and future projections for the promolgation of sexual and psychological disorders..... all organized and supported within the Catholic Church and involving the highest levels of leadership ....and including the different orders of Nuns!

So disturbing was this ,that I was unable to sleep for months ...and I eventually left in 1963.....

Books such as "The Tranceformation of America" further reinforced my findings over time...

Later I became aware that Satanists,such as the Black Pope or any very high order Masons(above 33rd Degree) all had to be Chatholic Priests to be eligible for the highest ranks of Satanism within prevailing Orders.

All you have to do to make a list of prominant Satanists or their supporters in North America is make a list of those present at Gerald Ford's Funeral to start.

WHERE I STAND TODAY ON SEXAULITY and PARTERSHIPS.

PARTNERSHIPS OVERALL:

Any and all partnerships are of the jurisdiction of the sovereign beings involved in that union and of no other!

Within the context of inalienable rights of self determinization (free will) no spiritual,religious, governmental or legal institution has jurisdiction of authority or licensing of any kind over the formation of that union except as declared within absolute free will choice by the sovereign persons making the commitment to that union.

What children you propagate, or choose to be in stewardship of , you are totally responsible for until they reach the age of self sufficiency or as all involved should decide.

In my observations some children reach self-suffficiency around 16 to 21 and other never reach it.

MALEFEMALE RELATIONSHIPS:

Malefemale relationships within the individuals' soul journeys can find a point at which their journeys together may end....without prejudice....after all some evolve far more rapidly than others.......or circumstances may influence....

Until death do us part is somewhat nonsensical since we and love are immortal and everlasting.

Jeshua Ben Joseph separated from Mary Magdalen and their children due to the threat of assasination....Joseph of Arimathea helped them get to Egypt then France to avoid death by the Zionists (Pharisees) of the time.

Jeshua then eventually went to what was then India (perhaps Kashmire today)and married ....etc,

If that parting of the ways was OK for Jeshua then it is OK for us...given the appropriate circumstances as we evolve to pure unconditional love and have the power to live in a world without our flaws.

A NOTABLE SIDE NOTE;

JESHUA BEN JOSEPH WAS BORN ON 8:8:8 BC .....UNDER THE CARE AND IN THE HOUSEHOLD OF A FAMILY OF MEANS......

MARY MAGDALENE WAS OF NOBILITY AND WEATLH NOT A TWO BIT WHORE! ( Mind you ,of the so called whores that I have met they seem to be closer to Reality and God than many.)

TO APPEAL TO THE SELF VICTIMIZING LOOSERS ,THE SPIRITUAL HIERARCHY((YES I AM REFERING TO CREATOR GOD ATON,AKA CHRIST MICHAEL,,ARCHANGEL GABRIEL,ESU EMMANUEL,ETC) THOUGHT THE MANGER STORY WOULD GO OVER BETTER....PARTICULARLY TO THE IGNORANT MASSES.....MY FAMILY BEING AMONG THE IGNORANT.

BUT THE END JUSTIFIES THE MEANS EVEN AMONG THE CREATOR GODS! RIGHT??????

That justification worked with me for a while ...but, there was always a restlessness that did not fully resonate in depth of "My Beingness" aka "The God Within"...ie the "Searcher" the "Observer" in me ,the "God Particle" could not find satisfaction in the lies no matter where they came from...even if presumably from the* Creator(aka God) Himself....so I continue to challenge and question absolutely everything no matter who it comes from until I find absolute resonance within my being.

I was born in 1942....I have experienced abject darkness and brilliant light..I have experienced absolute victimization and outrageous magic and power through creative visualization and manifestation...and I still stuggle for depth and understanding at times as I slowly but inexorably move to a consistent level of Light ,Love and Power.

*WELL EXC...USE ME!!! MEA CULPA, MEA CULPA, MEA CULPA.

To me,It is all about the ability of being frequency specific to the truth...or more simply ....your simple common sense response or gut reaction may at times be the most accurate test...just learn to observe it in detachment....and the truth will come to you many times.

Aren't We all challenged to challenge everthing and everyone until the full truth is revealed ?

NOW HAVING LAID DOWN MY CRITICALLY INFLUENCING BACKGROUNG LET'S CONTINUE WITH;

MALEMALE AND FEMALEFEMALE PARTERSHIPS;

ANOTHER CRITICAL INFLUENCE....OTHER THAN BODIES ALONE...THAT AFFECT PARTNERSHIPS:

Are you aware of the term "crossovers" used in defining choices of the souls journey?

Each soul creates,as they first descend into polarity or visble light ,a separate masculinefeminine or positivenegative electro-magnetic energy signature,with a corresponding physical body.

The original choice of polarities is permanent...ie...once a male or female in soul essence in duality ...always a male or female in polarity.

Due to specific lessons required in soul evolution an original female or male soul may choose (yes,.. choose) to reincarnate in a body of the opposite sex....Therefore you have an inherently male soul in a female body ...or vis versa a female soul in a male body!

SO ,WHY DO WE HAVE GAYS AND LESBIANS?

ACTUALLY THE SAME REASON WE HAVE CHAUVINIST AND FEMINISTS....

WE HAVE BEEN PROGRAMMED,PROPAGRANDIZED, MIND CONTROLLED AND MANIPULATED INTO THAT DELEMA FOR THE MOST PART.

I FIND THE TERMS GAY,LESBIAN,CHAUVINIST AND FEMINIST EQUALLY VILLIFYING...AND DESTRUCTIVE..

THEY FIT PERFECTLY INTO THE AGENDA OF THE PROTOCOLS OF THE SO CALLED LEARNED ELDERS OF ZION.

I CONSIDER THE TERMS GAY AND LESBIAN TO BE AS DESPICABLE AS CHAUVINISTS AND FEMINISTS, RAPISTS OR THE VICTIMS OF RAPE..ETC. BECAUSE THE ULTIMATE ASSAULT ON OUR MINDS AND SOULS IS THE SAME

The present delema of malemale and femalefemale attraction and regonition under religious ,governmental and legal authorities

is a direct evolution of the undermining of the sovereignty of the malefemale inalienable rights of sovereign declaration of the choice of union.

But,their is a complicating twist that needs consideration.

THE TWIST IS THAT AN ORIGINAL FEMALE SOUL CHOOSES TO REINCARNATE WITHIN A MALE BODY OR VIS VERSA FOR REASONS OF SOUL EVOLUTION .....AND CREATOR GOD ALLOWS IT!

HOWERVER CONSIDER THE FOLLOWING SCENARIO:

BORN AS A FEMALE...YOU AGREED TO LIVE AS A FEMALE...OR VIS VERSA.. AS DICTATED BY NATURE.

DUE TO THE INCREASING ABUSE OF CHILDREN AND WOMEN ....MANY REINCARNATE AS "CROSSOVERS' AS A WAY TO UNDERSTAND AND FIND COMPASSION FOR ASSUALTERS...OR IF THEY HAVE BEEN ASSAULTERS THEY ARE BORN IN CIRCUMSTANCES THAT ALLOW THEM TO EXPERIENCE BEING ASSAULTED....

MANY OF THOSE REINCARNATED IN AFRICA WERE TRADERS, OWNERS AND RUTHLESS ABUSERS OF SLAVES IN A PREVIOUS LIFETIME.

SO, YOU CAN APPRECIATE THE VALUE OF"DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO UNTO YOU".

SIMPLE LAWS OF ATTRACTION. OR KARMA..WHAT YOU SOW YOU REAP...HOWEVER FEW ARE FULLY AWARE OF JUST HOW THAT LAW APPLIES FROM INCARNATION TO INCARNATION...

THE SOUL LEARNS IT'S LESSONS IN A VERY SIMPLE FASHION....WHATEVER YOU DO TO OTHERS YOU GET TO EXPERIENCE AS BEING DONE TO YOU....BE IT PERVERSIONS, MURDER, JUDGEMENTS, ETC ...UNTIL YOU HAVE LEARNED ENOUGH TO LIVE AS THE EXPRESSION OF ABSOLUTE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE FOR ALL AND FOR YOURSELF ,YOU WILL GET TO KEEP REINCARNATING UNTIL YOU DEMONSTATE THAT YOU ARE CAPABLE OF COMPLETE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.

BACK TO A SIMPLE SCENARIO:

THE INFLUENCE OF THIS LIFE'S CIRCUMSTANCES CAN SIDE TRACK BOTH CROSSOVERS AND REGULAR INCARNATES.(REGULAR INCARNATES MEANS THAT A SAME SOUL ESSENCE IN THE SAME BODY IE FEMALE ESSENCE IN A FEMALE BODY).

FOR EXAMPLE A CROSSOVER (MALE SOUL IN A FEMALE BODY) SUFFERS IN A REGULAR MARRIAGE...

SO ALL OF A SUDDEN THE WOMAN IN THE MARRIAGE SAYS....I HAVE HAD ENOUGH WITH MEN....AND IS ATTRACTED TO A COMPASSIONATE FEMALE AND ON A SOUL LEVEL THE ATTRACTION IS QUITE POWERFUL AND SATISFYING...

GET THE IDEA ?

THE MALE SOUL IN A FEMALE BODY ADDAPTS EASILY TO WHAT APPEARS TO THE OTHER OBSERVERS AS PURELY FEMALE TO FEMALE BODIES.

HOWEVER, DO REMEMBER THAT WE ARE EXPECTED FOR THE GREATEST SOUL GROWTH TO LIVE A LIFE IN ALIGNMENT WITH THE BODY WE ARE BIRTHED WITH.

AFTER ALL WE GET TO PICKED IT!

THE NEXT CONSIDERATION AS TO WHAT MAY PUSH TO FEMALE FEMALE OR MALE MALE PARTNERSHIPS:

SIMPLY THE PERCEPTION OF AN INTOLERABLE LEVEL OF ABUSE AND REJECTION BY THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT A DELICATE , VULNERABLE AND FLAWED SOUL SEES TO BE EASILY REMEDIED BY REACHING OUT TO OTHERS OF THE SAME SEX WHO PROVIDE SAFETY AND COMPASSION IN MEETING THEIR NEEDS.

MY CONCLUSION ON SAME SEX PARTNERHSHIPS:

I CHOOSE TO LOVE THEN ALL.

SOME OF THE MOST LOVING ,COMPASSIONATE,INTELLIGENT,GENEROUS AND LOVING SOULS I HAVE EVER MET WERE CROSSOVERS AND REGULARLY WOUNDED INDIVIDUALS FINDING SOLACE IN THE LOVE OF SAME SEX RELATIONSHIPS AT VARIOUS STAGES OF THEIR EVOLUTION....

ARE THEY FLAWED?

YES!

MORE OR LESS THAN THE SO CALLED TRADITIONAL STRAIGHT PEOPLE?

NOT AT ALL!

THEY ARE SIMPLY ON THEIR JOURNEY AS ARE ALL OTHERS ON A PLANET THAT IS A PENAL COLONY FOR LUCIFERS' FOLLOWERS.

WE ARE NOW ASCENDING OUT OF THE DARKEST PLANET TO EVER EXIST.

DOES CREATOR CONDONE IT?

DOES CREATOR CONDEMN IT?

WELL..IF CREATOR DID NOT SUPPORT IT NONE OF US WOULD BE HERE!

LIGHT,LOVE AND POWER TO YOU.

THANK YOU FOR ANY REFLECTIONS YOU MAY CHOOSE TO SHARE.

(Response)

FROM: Patrick H. Bellringer

TO: JR

DATE: Jan. 7, 2007

SUBJECT: Reply

Dear JR:

Thank you for your thoughts on human sexuality and unconditional love. As you know, the basis for the Truth we present on Fourwinds is the Phoenix Journals. The Pleiades Connection Series (Journals 30-37 http://www.fourwinds10.com/journals/index.html) discusses in detail Creation and Creator Source

Creator Source/Creation is pure Light energy and a total balance of male and female energies. We are created as a fragment of Creator Source, a spark of that balanced energy, which makes up our soul essence. Therefore, we each have both balanced female and male energies initially. You premise of having only one energy initially is wrong. In any given lifestream we choose to experience in either a female or male body, but our balanced sexual energy exists until we allow it to become unbalanced. Continual imbalance of sexual energy over time has led to great sexual perversion.

Creator God's Laws concerning human sexuality are quite clearly stated in Phoenix Journal 27, though they counter much of modern day thinking. Unconditional Love is simply loving with no conditions, which is not totally possible for us until we have reached perfection and returned to Creator Source, though even in 3D we still strive for that goal as enlightened people.

In June, 2007 Anne and I will have been married forty-five years, well beyond the norm. Though we have been happily married and have spent past lifestreams together as husband and wife, we have not yet achieved unconditional Love. I enclose here a statement from Phoenix Journals #7 The Rainbow Masters, about true marriage.

MARRIAGE True marriage is a marriage of the souls. Each soul is a "flame" of Light. The two become soul-partners, yet each with their own identity, their own Light. These "twin flames" walk together the single path of the Christ Red Ray, the "Red Road" of the Lighted Realms. One is the bearer of the Alpha flame, the other of the Omega flame, forming a circle of the White Light of God Aton, the God of Light, that cannot be penetrated. This circle of protection is like an impregnable fortress. Ever maintain your flame to ever keep that circle unbroken. With such Light-power of both your own aura and that of your "twin flame" circle, all darkness of the Dark Realms shall be swept aside. (Some thoughts from the Phoenix Journal #7, The Rainbow Masters)

Gay and Lesbian relationships can be loving relationships in 3D between souls, but can never approach unconditional love, for such relationships are out of balance with Creator's Plan. Under the Laws of God and Creation, sexual relations of any kind are strictly forbidden in all gay and lesbian relationships. Only friendship is allowed. You make a wrong conclusion that Creator God supports such relationships. He only allows them, because we live in a freewill world.

We choose to experience any and everything for our lessons in soul growth. Be assured that in our past lifestreams we have experienced everything to arrive at our present level of enlightenment. We have been both the victim and the victimizer, the master and the slave, the saint and the most vile, but no one graduates into fifth dimension without a proven understanding and lifestyle of living fully the Laws of God and Creation. There are no exceptions.

Be thankful, my friend, that you had the experience of a loving Grandmother. Many are not so fortunate.

In Love and Light,

Patrick H. Bellringer

Reply

----- Original Message -----

From: JR

To: Bellringer

Sent: Sunday, January 07, 2007 6:13 PM

Subject: Response to your reflections on unconditional love and human sexuality

Dear Anne and Patrick;

I actually agree entirely with your reflections...,

Thank you so much for reminding me of the relevant the Phoenix Journals....although I have read a number of them I still lack your remarkable ability to remember where specific teachings can be revisited.

I have found that as I reread them over time I am able to get feedback as to my evolution according to how my life is in alignment in understanding and action with the teachings.

THERE ARE ONLY TWO ITEMS WHICH I WISH TO COMMENT FURTHER ON:

A)

I do know that Creator "allows" our flaws...and does not "support" them in the sense of approving of them...as they are what binds us to darkness.

My use of the word "support" was seemingly

inappropriate.even in my mind at first.... yet that has been extremely usefull in directing me to a place of understanding of where my struggle lies on these issues.

I will share what I have learned in this exercise of communication since it may also help others.

MY STRUGGLE IS NOT IN KNOWING WHAT THE LAWS OF CREATOR ARE...

MY STRUGGLE IS IN COMPLETE RESOLUTION OF ANY REMAINING EMOTIONAL TIES ON ANY OF THE RELEVANT ISSUES.

FORGIVENESS, AND TOTAL RELEASE OF ALL BLAME AND JUDGEMENTS ,AND ENDING THE PROJECTION OF PAST NEEDINESS TO THE PRESENT ARE MY RESPONSIBILITY ...BOTH TO MYSELF AND TO ALL CONCERNED ....MANY ON VERY SUPTLE LEVELS.

An aside:

My mom and dad were married for 65 years.

It was my mother's innocense and spiritual strength that held it together.

B)

I just want to address the question of polarity.

We may actually be saying the same thing.

I will restate my understanding and occasional memories of such experiences in a different way.

Our soul essence was birthed (created) as pure consciousnes and energy with absolute balance of what we call male/female or postive/negative energies.

As we descended in frequency and density we passed throught ultra violet blue into the visible light spectrum causing the big bang and creating male/female expressions(polarities) of the same soul.

We continued our decent in frequency and density through the infra red band to physical matter as male or female.

This generalized version appears to be in line with what you stated.

To my mind each soul is unique and immortal.

Each souls first experience in polarity becomes unique and immortal.

In other words the soul's essence in polarity as male or female remains that for the life of that unique soul fragment during all reincarnations.

My memories of a number of lifetimes,at least on earth,bear this out within my journey.

I could choose the body ,male or female ,that I decided was best suited for the journey...but I always remained in essence the first of my polarizations...which happens to be male.

I will do some rereading of the Phoenix Journals you have so astutely reminded me of.

Light,Love and Power to you.

Thanks again for whatever you may choose to share.

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----- Original Message -----

From: JO

To:

Sent: Monday, January 08, 2007 11:37 AM

Subject: Contact Request From FourWinds10.com

Message: Dear Patrick;

Several years ago a friend of mine(female) and me (male) were exploring the energy centeres on both sides of our auras. She was complaining of a pain on the outside of her aura. She would pick a point and I would in my emagination tune into the location. http://users.ritternet.com/jobrien/chak.html

CHAKRA AND ENERGY PORTAL CIRCUIT DESCRIPTION

describes the 280 energy points we discovered. One point was . Root Chakra (#9) It is an energy point designated as "(12) Field of choices of gender. How much of the one you didn't choose do you want in this (next) lifetime." This is a clear indication that we choose not only our gender, but how much of a blend we want with the one not chosen. you might ask your spiritual sources and see woat they say..