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'Hello, Central!' Please Say Something Because I Feel I'm On Tilt! (Updated Nov. 17, 2008)
Patrick H. Bellringer
Message:
Many apologies for whatever eccentric emails I\'ve sent you in the past, but how do you personally unfold your Creativity everyday? I\'m young, almost 23 years old, and I can\'t think of anything in the physical other than games which brings out my feelings of productive potent creativity, however, I do fully acknowledge the Creation at work through my mental projections and intent.
With that said, I often want to cry lately thinking at the now moments that have passed where I have done nothing in the physical with my body to earn help pay off my karmic dependency debt to family, just as much as I can choose to feel the time that has been wasted in the mental realm devoted to these games and other inconsequential trivialities. I could sit in dark room and lightcast for 16 hours a day if I truly willed it!...But my spirit also cries to be interacting with friends and other people; and when I am alone, sometimes my thoughts drift to the past when I had more of a semblance of unity and creative mental exchange with people, yet it is difficult and perhaps somewhat risky to the solidity of normal relations to attempt to, even casually, bend people\'s mentality in a slightly different direction by offering what many might consider \"radical\" views on the true forces that command reality.
I\'m so sorry for whatever I have done to allow this limited collective experience to drag on for us. Perhaps I could ALONE have ended this YEARS ago!! I don\'t have preference to how you respond just please say something cause I feel like I\'m on tilt. And if any negative energy views that as some sort of opening YOU WILL be soaked in violet flame and transmuted on a way ticket to source, just at what appearance of speed only lighted immaterial perspective can view. Peace be with you and your family Patrick, and may God help us.
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Patrick,
Could I put my 2 cents worth in to the question asked by N? I went through a long side bar in life too and when I found myself back at the beginning but with my eyes opened, I realized that I had been given the gift of seeing first hand several seperate ways of seeing/looking at the world and my place in it. I consider that a great gift that was given to me and I would like to share some possitive thoughts with N.
Dear N... another view
Don't bewail lost time. You can't retrieve it, so just forget it.
Today and all the tomorrows are what is important.
If you have taked a detour, consider it recharge time. Consider it as time spent in learning what you don't want to do with most of your time and the rest of your life... not as something wasted.
There are lessons lurking in the strangest places and the classes never end. You have now before you a good view of two ways to spend your life. Now you make a choice and ask for help every day for the right choices and right steps. The help will be given and in a few weeks or months you will look back in one of your passive times and think... 'that was a down time I needed to get my heart/heat straight... Thank You!'.
Don't worry, what was is gone, now to step ahead again!
And do sit back and enjoy those 'games' once in a while.
Ever try to point out a chemtrail and watch as the other person just can't see what is there? How much harder to get someone to 'see' something that can't be seen with eyes!
I know not all people are on the same wave length, there is absolutely no one I know, I can talk about this stuff to. They look at me like I am crazy or walk off shaking their heads... and I try to be real subtle about how I aproach the subjects. Sigh. Hang in there and try some correspondence with others on your level to keep your head from going 'tilt'!
God bless!
C
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We are all in this together! Forgive yourself and find the next best thing you can do! Whenever you think you've done bad, reforgive yourself and try again!
I am also 23 if you want to know and I've lost most of my friends in the last 3-4 years because of my 'insane conspiracy theories'... So I mostly stopped talking about these things around 2006 because I saw I was just being thought of as someone preaching about the devil and god on the street that no one listens to and even more would I say, every one avoids them!
Nowadays I don't relate to many people of my age, because they all go out, drink, consume etc. And I have absolutely no interest in all those things, but as Patrick answered you rightly, one, two friends is all you need! I just have one physically and I'm happy, I couldn't handle more! And feel the friendship of your guardian angels, they are always there waiting to help you in whatever is your choice!
I'm sure you've helped more than you can imagine, being quiet and peaceful in a corner wishing all the best for everyone around you is huge in terms of sharing light, how many people consumed by the physical way of living actually think/ponder of how society could be better everyday, I wonder? To wake them up might not have been the best choice, because as you wrote: "yet it is difficult and perhaps somewhat risky to the solidity of normal relations to attempt to, even casually, bend people\'s mentality in a slightly different direction by offering what many might consider \"radical\" views on the true forces that command reality."
All the 'masters' I can think of were very quiet and peaceful, they never exposed so much and yet they had a profound effect on this world! you and I know that you will just be considered as one more 'lunatic preaching about conspiracies theories" if you try to explain things in a 'human' way.
But when someone goes to these masters and asks them anything, they always take time to answer the questions, like Patrick for instance ;)
Just try to do what you think is best, and if someone come and asks you about things, then share what you know in the correct amount :)
Forgive yourself for your wrongs and try to do better each time.
In Love and Light
FB.