n one feels envious he actually feels INFERIOR because he has judged that the actions or attainments of another are, first of all, desirous for self, and secondly, BEYOND the ability of self to attain or manifest. Dear ones, you can spend your entire lives (and have) searching outside yourself for what is “BETTER” than the lot you have created, but searching outside yourself for self-worth which exists within will only confine you to feelings of critical frustration for the lack of accessing your own spiritual creative potential. YOU MUST KNOW that ALL you “have” and “are” within your experience is what YOU have chosen to have and be. Why need you feel envy, instead of honor and reverence for another of what is your “perception” of outstanding achievement? Why not instead define what is “outstanding” achievement for self, by the degree of JOY and SPIRITUAL KNOWLEDGE AND WISDOM it offers you? How will you do this? Take back your GOD-given power by taking personal responsibility for ALL experiences within your manifested “illusion”. Ask THE FATHER GOD/ATON within you TO SHOW you that which YOU need to FULFILL HIS WILL in HONOR, BALANCE, HARMONY, JOY, INTEGRITY, and TRUTH. Then WAIT UPON GOD/ATON WITHIN to show you what are your unique contributions to the joyous, creative unfoldment of THE ONE ALL THAT IS!

7. SLOTH

Let us begin by first defining what is SLOTH: “Indolence; (which means: Adverse to exertion; lazy) idleness; laziness; disinclination to work or exert oneself.

”What we have witnessed most upon your plane is the sloth of your God-given reasoning MINDS. This MIND-SLOTH is what has made you easy target for lies and disinformation. The reason is that you have fallen into the habit of letting others THINK and REASON FOR YOU, and by this mind-laziness have found it easier to BELIEVE another’s projection or opinion of what is Truth rather than properly researching, by engaging your OWN logical reasoning mind with THE FATHER WITHIN, TO achieve KNOWLEDGE AND WISDOM of what is TRUTH. You see, in this way do you also shirk YOUR personal responsibility by not recognizing your responsibility to SEEK AND KNOW THE TRUTH WITHIN. You ones then further your “sin” by complaining and criticizing bitterly and thus casting BLAME outside yourself when the “lie” or “deception” is later discovered by you.

You ones still believe IGNORANCE IS BLISS? GODLY KNOWLEDGE AND WISDOM ACCOMPLISHED AND EARNED WITHIN IS TRUE BLISS, PRECIOUS ONES! Ignorance of Truth is an illusion that keeps you trapped within the living of a lie. You are NOT free and the truly sad thing is YOU DO NOT KNOW you are duped and trapped so then the chains can be brought about thee ever so tightly, and by the time recognition of Truth literally “slaps” your awareness awake, it is often most traumatic and too late for you to extricate yourself until finally the death of the body releases your self-allowed anguish and horror.

Is your true ignorance forgiven? ALWAYS! But NOW that you are becoming armed with knowledge and wisdom within of what is the Truth, WHAT WILL YOU DO TO CHANGE OF THE EVIL CIRCUMSTANCES PERPETRATED BY, OR AGAINST, YOU? WILL YOUR MIND-SLOTH BECOME APATHETIC WHICH IS INDIFFERENCE? AND THEN WILL YOU BE OVERCOME WITH THE PARALYZING HOPELESSNESS OF DESPAIR AND DEPRESSION WHICH IS GIVING YOUR GOD-POWER TO THE ANTI-CHRIST? WE, YOUR BROTHERS, YOUR HOSTS OF THE WORD OF TRUTH AND LIGHT AND WISDOM WHICH IS GOD/ATON AND THE CREATION, CERTAINLY INTEND TO LESSEN THE ODDS AGAINST YOU! CHELAS, WILL YOU HEAR? WILL YOU SEE? WILL YOU ACCEPT GOD’S HAND OF TRUTH, OF MERCY, OF LOVE AND OF WISDOM? WE OFFER YOU THE CHOICE, PRECIOUS ONES, AND THE CHOICE IS YOURS TO MAKE. MAY THE TRUTH, WISDOM AND FREEDOM OF WHAT IS HOLY GOD’S LIGHT WITHIN YOU BE IGNITED IN JOY BY YOUR WILL, YOUR CHOICE, TO SERVE THE UNLIMITED WILL OF GOD/ATON AND THE CREATION. SO BE IT!

There is also what is physical sloth or laziness. This simply is often counterpart to Mind-sloth. If you cannot move your mind into awareness most likely your body will not be motivated either. It is simply inability to LIVE or take in LIFE. It is also unwillingness to take responsibility by taking action for making changes which would “better” your lot in life. Ones who are slothful would rather sit in quiet (or not so quiet) self-pity and blame ALL “out there” and therefore not take self-responsibility for his “perceived” lack.

8. FEAR

We have also spoken of the “deadly” sin of feeling unnatural and excessive fear in the previous pages under, “How to Recognize the Anti-Christ Within”. We discussed that the Anti-Christ traps you in the illusion of what is FUTURE-FEAR ORIENTATION.

Let us define FEAR: “1. An agitated feeling aroused by awareness of danger, trouble, etc. 2. An uneasy feeling that something may happen contrary to one’s desires. 3. A feeling of deep awe and dread.” And for fun, let us define what is AWE: “Reverential fear; dread mingles with veneration (respect or deference) and now we will define DEFERENCE which is yielding to the will or opinions of another OR respectful regard.”

By keeping you locked in constant agitation or uneasiness about what could happen — you are robbed of the present moment of life which is the NOW of eternity. Generally speaking, one who is fearful of future possiblities/probabilities occupies much “time” in WORRY about possible consequences of a decision or an action and will also often procrastinate (delay) making the final choice. Let us define WORRY: “1. To be uneasy in the mind; fret. 2. To pull or tear at something with the teeth. 3. To cause to feel uneasy in the mind; trouble. 4. To bother or pester 5. Worries — something that causes anxiety.” So many of you have expressed or heard the phrase, “I was worried sick!” It is true that fear and its handmaiden “worry” can and will literally make you physically ill. Simply by imaging in your mind a picture, idea or “horrid” consequence, you actually manifest the “realness” of that which you fear upon yourself. Whether the ACTUAL physical manifested outcome occurs according to your worst fears, or not, YOU have suffered in your moments of fear and worry as though it HAD occurred. Do you see? You are creating the worst even if it be only in your “mind” through the emotional REACTION of fear.

Often the question is asked in earnest, “Well, if we are told, for example, that the probabilities are high that we could soon experience a devastating earthquake in San Francisco and/or Los Angeles, are we not “feeding” the negative probability by believing it and thus insuring that it will occur?” We will answer in two-fold manner. First, you must recognize the facts of truth of your “present” circumstances...that the planet, Mother Earth, is a being who has been poisoned by YOU, HER GUARDIANS. She will need to cleanse herself, so this means massive earth changes will occur as a part of the process of bringing to the surface the poisons of nuclear detonations, pesticides etc. which have been festering within her. Also, you have the “mighty” powers of Russian cosmospheres which unnaturally control the weather patterns, and which are able to detonate bombs already in place along your “fault” lines. So you have the agenda of your beloved planet who wishes only to be cleansed, and the agenda of the Dark brotherhood working through the “ELITE” few to control your planet and that means to ultimately destroy much of the population in order to manage THEIR domination more easily. Is information about lies, deception, and cover-ups perpetrated against you by these ones of THE ELITE, which is coming forth through the Journals, “negative” and therefore not worth your time to consider because you fear “feeding” the perhaps undesirable (to you) outcome of perceived “negative” probabilities? THIS MATERIAL IS INFORMATION GIVEN IN TRUTH, BE IT PERCEIVED “NEGATIVE” OR “POSITIVE” IN MANIFESTED REALITY. UNFORTUNATELY MOST INFORMATION PRESENTED SO FAR IS A RESULT OF GOD’S PROMISE TO EXPOSE THE “SATANS” OR “ADVERSARIES” WHO HAVE MANAGED BY FORCE AND ALLOWANCE TO HOLD YOU HOSTAGE IN “ILLUSION” OF SEPARATION AGAINST YOUR CREATOR WITHIN YOU BY DECEPTION OF TRUTH OF YOUR POWER OF ONENESS. WHEN IT BECOMES “NEGATIVE” UPON SELF IS WHEN YOU ARE NO LONGER IGNORANT OF TRUTH AND YOU STILL DO NOTHING TO CHANGE YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES BECAUSE YOU WOULD INSTEAD RATHER HIDE BEHIND YOUR FEAR AND SELF-PERCEIVED HELPLESSNESS!

Is it wrong to make “plans” for your future in your now? Not if it corresponds to the “positive” creative unfoldment of self-improvement and self-expansion of your knowledge and wisdom of Truth in your NOW. You see, YOUR DESIRE TO KNOW AND SERVE GOD will itself propel you ever forward in knowledge and wisdom of Truth. AND so too, (your desire) will demand the discipline of self to remain focused on your goal. Let us define discipline, “1. Training of the mental, moral and physical powers by instruction, control and exercise. 2. The state or condition resulting from such training. 3. Punishment or corrective action for the sake of training. 4. A branch of knowledge.” We would further add herein that there need not ever be PUNISHMENT of self or another to achieve discipline. Simple integrity of focused attention in gaining wisdom of Truth and recognizing and understanding consequences of thoughts and actions given in “error” are what are necessary to take corrective measures of action for successful training IN GODLY TRUTH to take place.

This scribe has recently heard it said, “In order to be a `winner’, (given in reference to a “karate” competition) you must develop the three D’s...DESIRE...DEVOTION...AND DISCIPLINE.” Well, we will ask you each to apply the beautiful simplicity of this statement to yourselves in your goal to overcome the false “illusions” of the Anti-Christ and become the “winners” of attaining your UNLIMITED SPIRITUAL FREEDOM by recognizing and reconnecting with THE FATHER/MOTHER CREATOR/CREATION WITHIN YOU. Remember, we discussed earlier how the “Anti-Christ” rules you by your desires—meaning for “things” or “attachments” of physical illusion. If your ONLY true desire is TO KNOW AND SERVE GOD/ATON, then where does that leave the Anti-Christ? Out the “door” of YOUR space on his behind!

Remember this too, precious ones, when you truly ASK the Father/Mother God/Aton within you FOR Truth, YOU RECEIVE TRUTH. This does not mean you will necessarily like or enjoy what you find, but as long as you remain devoted to the discipline of emotional detachment, such as from feeling paralyzing fear, you will become EMPOWERED by THE WISDOM of the GOD/GODDESS within you. Does this mean you will never feel fear again? Not necessarily, but you will by your desire, devotion and discipline learn to overcome your fear and take the necessary actions to bring about GODLY changes, whether it be within self or in “situations” or experiences put before you.

Here is another aspect of understanding fear which you must also recognize. You ones also can experience fear or alarm as a “warning” mechanism of clear or unclear present danger to you. Fear became the manifestation of your desire for “survival” on the physical plane. It was created by you because of the limitation brought about by your “veil” of forgetfulness about your soul immortality. And it was thus encouraged by the “deceivers” or “satans” in order to terrorize, control and enslave you through your fear of death of the body. Actually, even those of you who now KNOW your soul is immortal will still feel fear if you or your family is threatened in some way. You must overcome the fear by acknowledging the “warning” and seeking protection, counsel and guidance with THE FATHER WITHIN, so that you will be given instructions about how to best respond to the situation, whether it be defense of self and family or something other. Many ones simply fear physical pain and suffering more than death itself. So you must overcome the initial “fear” warning, and gain the counsel within to ACT in order to protect yourself or others. It is only when YOU are overcome and paralyzed by your fear that you will not listen to YOUR inner guidance and thus lose your power to change the outcome of the situation.

So in summation, when we say “you must conquer your fear”, we are speaking of future fear/worry orientation and that fear which paralyzes you into INACTION or feelings of HELPLESSNESS. Remember YOU are NEVER HELPLESS WITH GOD! You must learn to TRUST; you will ALWAYS be given whatever you need in ALL circumstances put before you. WHEN YOU SINCERELY ASK THE FATHER/MOTHER WITHIN, IT IS DONE!!

9. GUILT

Now, we will also discuss in further detail that which is guilt. Earlier, we talked about how the Anti-Christ traps you in PAST-GUILT ORIENTATION as a way in which to rob you of the NOW or present Moment of LIFE. We will first define guilt: “1. The fact or condition of having committed a legal or moral offense. 2. A feeling of remorse arising from a real or imagined commission of an offense. 3. Guilty conduct. GUILTY defined as, “1. Deserving of blame for some offense. 2. Convicted of some offense 3. Involving, pertaining to, or showing guilt.”

The first thing you must realize is that to FEEL guilt about some past thought, word or deed does not always necessarily mean you are GUILTY of a “wrong” against YOUR SPIRIT WITHIN. The “wrong” to the Spirit Within occurs when you assume unworthiness or blame upon self and thus punish self by self-condemning thoughts and actions. You must always ask yourselves: do you feel “guilt” because someone else has offered it or imposed it upon you and you have accepted or allowed them to blame you for some action or occurrence which you KNOW you are really not “guilty” of? Let us give you an example of a response of “false” guilt which many of you ones will relate with in experience within your “modern” western civilization.

Let us say you are a girl child of eleven-years-old. Up to this age you have enjoyed relative childhood security, love and dependence with your Mother and Father. Then, suddenly, you are told by your parents that THEY no longer love one another and cannot live together and will become DIVORCED. Please understand this carefully, precious ones; IN MOST ALL CASES of separation of parents, the child or children BLAME THEMSELVES. You see, the child often believes that, “If mommy and daddy can stop loving each other, they can stop loving me, too.” We would suggest to you ones that if a couple says they STOPPED loving one another, they most likely NEVER truly loved. Do you see how confusing this sort of drastic change and separation is to a child? Now in our hypothetical case, let us continue with the story in which similar circumstances have occurred with many. The Mother retains “custody” of the little girl. The father leaves town, he says, for other work challenges and opportunities. The child seldom sees him anymore; he is always so busy. The child’s Mother must go to work, let us say for the first time since she became married to the child’s Father.

Do you begin to see what this looks and feels like to the little girl? She feels she has been rejected, she begins to feel unloved and unworthy because she blames herself for her parent’s divorce by perhaps not being a “good” enough little girl. Her mother works and comes home irritable, resentful and angry at the little girl’s father, which only adds to the little girl’s soul-anguish and feelings of unworthiness. The two people she loved, trusted and even idolized the most no longer exist for her. She is alone. Do you ones realize that ALL most of you truly want is to be sincerely always LOVED exactly the way you are without conditions?

So the little girl begins to punish herself. She begins to seek LOVE and acceptance outside herself which she feels she no longer has at home. Throughout her teen years she walks the path of victim by self-destructive actions and by continuous rejection by others. You see, like so many of you even now in adult state, she only wants to BE LOVED, but because she feels UNWORTHY of the true LOVE she pines for, she continues to sabotage herself by choosing relationships which dishonor her as she dishonors herself. She may become angry toward “male” humans, because she is angry with her Father “for leaving her”. She may not only punish self but also seek to punish all “men” who represent her Father. Eventually her heart is so hardened she feels nothing, no joy, no love, no caring. It is her against the world and she feels alone and bitter.

Now God, our Father, is most distressed when one of HIS becomes lost in “negative” response to his/her manifested experience. HE in His mercy will send help to the child or young woman to help her recognize that there are those WHO do love and care for her. He will send her “signs” of HIS LOVE so that she may forgive and heal the dis-ease within self. Will she recognize THE LOVE OF OUR FATHER presented to her? It is her choice, for God will never force any. He will, though, wisely choose the one/ones who will manifest HIS LOVE FOR HER, which He deems will be most acceptable to her. It will then depend upon her soul integrity how well she will recognize, forgive and overcome her self-imposed “guilt”.

Many of you ones who NOW serve faithfully within HIS service, have manifested for yourselves very difficult circumstances in your growing years in which you had to ultimately understand, forgive and overcome in order to serve HIS WILL as willingly as you do now. WHY? Mostly you ones have simply asked for difficult “testing” in order to gain the compassion and understanding of how and why your brethren have been so crippled, deceived and so lost for so long, so that you can “relate” with the circumstances of the deceived and thereby be the most effective in helping them see “THE LIGHT” of GODLY TRUTH WITHIN THEM! Be most grateful for the lessons offered, learned and overcome, chelas; you are spiritually MUCH stronger because of them.

Now we will discuss Past-Guilt Orientation a bit more. If you feel guilty for some past deed, you must determine WHY the guilt is felt. If you recognize an error against another, then by understanding and learning the lesson and then self-forgiveness, you will have released GUILT. Many of you instead wallow around in the “horrible” situation and wish only to feel sorry for yourselves so that you think you are not responsible for the “error”. Recognize your responsibility, learn the lesson, forgive AND RELEASE it. IT is done and you further the transgression against your SPIRIT by “reliving” the “dastardly” deed in your mind and not LIVING your moment NOW in fullness. This is PUNISHMENT of self and is not of GOD, but of the ANTI-Christ. Do you see? You walk around saying, “I SHOULD have”...well, you DIDN’T and it is over. The next time a similar situation presents itself, and it will, you will know how best to respond with GODLY integrity, right?