ame. You, chela, must not jump to conclusions about intent of the writer, only intent of self. This is what I ask you to ponder.

I ask you not to condemn self and feel as a failure. You must become aware of that which you do and why you do it. This is a part of your growth, not punishment or condemnation.

Let us begin by asking how you feel. For you cannot understand the lesson until you remove the emotions which cloud with opinion and NOT knowing. Alright, you admit to being angry and resentful, unappreciated and confused.

Who are you truly angry with, chela. I’ll tell you if you are not correct in perception. Do not be afraid. Yes, you are angry with self first and that is why you lash out to feel resentment, unappreciation and then comes the confusion.

You blame self for inadequate communication skills. For not properly supporting your supporting cast as you perceive it “should” have been done. For “failing” George in proper communication of accounting of business losses to Hatonn. You feel most inadequate with “people” management. And chela, you can just join the crowd with that one. For it takes time and work and MUTUAL commitment of all to accomplish all that YOU feel responsible for.

And then come all the opinions of the supporting cast of what is WRONG and nothing is said by these ones who complain the most about what is RIGHT! So it is natural, chela that you and G. feel confused and inadequate. For the blame is being DUMPED upon you and YOUR response has been to ALLOW it!

YOU TWO are being asked to change everything and very few of the rest of this group are efforting to take any responsibility for making NECESSARY changes in themselves. I am very sorry if this offends ones. It is time that these ones be HELPED in the restructuring and offered GENUINE and viable suggestions for doing same for they are now left floundering with many reluctant workers and volunteers who REFUSE TO OFFER POSITIVE COMMUNICATION. EGO-TRIPPING? Desiree’ and George certainly are not perfect and have and continue to have constant attack upon ego perceptions and constantly are facing rebalancing decisions as if walking upon a tight rope. AND MANY OF YOU ONES ARE SHAKING THE ROPE HOPING THEY FALL! SO BE IT!

Desiree’ has pleaded for guidance and what she must do and change to make this right with everyone. SHE AND GEORGE CANNOT DO THIS ALONE. And I will not ask them to continue as it is. IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT? BE VERY CAREFUL WHAT YOU SAY FOR GOD HEARS YOUR HEART! DO YOU WANT TO OVERTHROW YOUR “LEADERSHIP”? FOR YOU PERCEIVE YOU CAN DO IT BETTER?

I WILL CERTAINLY HOPE THAT YOU CHOOSE TO REPAIR THIS SHIP YOU ARE ON FOR THE CONSEQUENCES OF NOT JOINTLY DOING SO WILL PROVE TO BE UNBEARABLE FOR MOST OF YOU. GUILT TRIP. I NEED NOT PLAY SILLY HUMAN GAMES. I SIMPLY SHOW YOU HOW I SEE IT HAS COME TO BE. AND MY FATHER ATON HAS ENTRUSTED ME WITH THE HUMANS UPON THIS ENTIRE PLANET AND I CANNOT ALLOW MY SELF/GOD-CHOSEN HANDS AND FEET TO CONTINUE WITH THIS EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER OF SELFISHNESS AND IRRESPONSIBILITY!

I ASK ALL OF YOU, NOT JUST GEORGE, DESIREE’, DHARMA AND OBERLI TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR EGO BALANCING IN SELF. DESIREE’ NEVER WANTED TO COME HERE, AND THEN THIS BECAME HER HOME. NOW, FRANKLY, SHE CAN’T WAIT TO LEAVE! DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD?

GOSSIP, GOSSIP, GOSSIP... THE ADVERSARY’S GAME

ALL of you ones gossip about one another. Do you think We of God’s Hosts don’t KNOW how you feel and think. When you ask us in. WE KNOW. If you throw God out in ego-tantrum. So be it.

Did G & D make an incorrect decision regarding Sandy for Office Manager? They picked the person THEY felt could best handle the job and SHE offered to HELP IN ANY WAY SHE COULD. How about the rest of you? Oh yes YOU work only for ATON, not for or with George. And now there are ones of you WHO REFUSE to give her a chance to do a job she has done (managing people) for MANY years. Is she perfect? Of course not. She is willing to do ALL she knows and is receiving to solve these problems. To bridge these gaps. Do rectify these miscommunication and personality differences. How about YOU? And this is NOT even the job she has come to do.

But she sees that G & D need this help and she is WILLING to work with them and with YOU. Will you give this a chance? What will YOU do to bring about positive change?

“Volunteers” and this includes G & D and Dharma & Oberli, do you KNOW why you volunteer? What do YOU expect to gain? You ones who “work beyond reasonable expectation”, WHY do you beat yourselves to death and then expect human accolades?

Do you know that I have suggested to these ones NOT to have volunteers any longer, for many resent being so, and refuse to talk about it except behind the backs of G & D. This means to nearly “break the camel’s back” for G & D financially cannot ever “break even” with the production of so many books AND this newspaper on a continuous basis with the current sales they have been receiving. The volume of books and newspaper subscriptions must double for this financial burden to ease. And although it is nudging upward, it is VERY slowly doing so. The “other” book sales are poured mostly back into printing more JOURNALS and advertising. AND YOU ONES INSINUATE that “GREAT PROFITS” must be somehow hoarded by these ones! WRONG, WRONG, WRONG!

And so you would PUSH them out just before the very possibility that the “sales” bubble will burst forth in abundance?! I WILL NOT HAVE THIS! YOU desire STATUS? YOU DESIRE MORE MONEY? YOU DESIRE SOME COMPENSATION? THEN YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR COMMUNICATING TO THE HUMANS WHO WILL DO THE BEST THEY KNOW HOW TO ACCOMMODATE YOUR SITUATION, OR YOU WILL GO ELSEWHERE TO GROW-UP! SO BE IT!

These are difficult times, my precious ones, most difficult indeed. And my “heart” is heavy from seeing ALL of your pain and self-abuse and abuse of one another for pettiness, ego pettiness. You must each decide now what YOU are willing to do FOR God, not just for self, to be martyr and “better” or lessor than another. Do you say to GOD. “Oh God look what I do for you and no one appreciates ALL that I do. Woe is me.” I must say, MOST of you do. You have no trust between you ones and the envy makes some of you look like the “green” martians depicted in your media.

Please know that you are all so very precious to me. I honor each and every one for his/her contributions, even in the face of full emotional human bombardment by your adversary. You WILL learn. And We of God’s Hosts will walk with you and guide you so that you can chose to move self beyond the blind limitations you set for yourselves. All of you have been pushed beyond human limitations and it is often most painful indeed. Your pain is MY pain as well.

So please, my brethren be gentle in your thoughts and words and deeds with self and one another. You can and will pull yourself from the quicksand of human impact IF you make your lifeline, GOD. For His way is the only way to spiritual freedom and peace within. So be it. I AM Sananda, One with God, in His service. Thank you for listening my precious dove, Druthea. You are of me as I am of you. I love you ones beyond human words. Go in Peace. Salu.